(This is me this morning....)
Before you all panic after reading the heading of this post and think that Chaos and Mayhem have moved out, I assure you that is not happening. I had my first empty nesting pang today though.
I struggled to have children, I will not detail here, but my kids are the result of nice men in lab coats giving me hormones and blood tests and nine months of hell pregnancies. So even though I have child slave traders on speed dial some days, I love my babies. Thus throughout their lives I have had moments of sadness as I realise that they are growing up. Today I had a rather large empty nester pang.
Driving into work, ultra early this morning to get some shit done before the rest of the crew pops in, as I was driving past a school, they had a reminder on their message board "Mothers Day Stall". And I was sad. Since Chaos and Mayhem went into high school I have not received a hastily chosen $2 gift and hand made Mother's Day card. Damn it...I miss them. I still have the hand cream and flower card with a tea light candle in the centre as well as the fake flower display from the last primary school Mother's Day stall. They make me smile.
This morning I realised that I will never get another one, and my heart ached for the first time that one day Chaos and Mayhem will be out of the house and there are so many things that will never happen again.
Everyday I learn something new about my babies.
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